So Sgt. and I are checked in to a nearby hotel for three nights to take pics for Chateau Cherie.  Day one, Sgt has to drop me off at the hotel (where I have a live session scheduled), and immediately scurry back home to do dinner, bath, and bedtime with the kids.  When he arrives back after 11pm, he’s so tired (I’d already fallen asleep) that no photos get taken.

Day two, we’d planned to make an early start of it and do a couple of sets before the live session I have scheduled at lunchtime.  This gets interrupted by a call from Grandma…my son refuses to get dressed and misses the bus, which means we have to drive back home, get him together, and ferry him to school.  Fortunately for my sanity he consented to dress as soon as Grandma told him Mom & Dad were coming home, and walked into the school with perfect docility (unlike the day last week when I had to chase him down in the parking lot and drag him inside).  I’m on the verge of tears the whole trip, thinking about how much work I’ve put into my website, how very badly I want it to succeed, and how impossible that seems at the moment, when I can’t seem to find a few uninterrupted hours to take pictures.

We get back at the hotel around 10:30…my client is due at 11:30, so no pics this morning either.  And since we have to be back home again this afternoon by three, and won’t get away until after nine, likely no pics today at all.  Again.  That leaves tomorrow, and I can only pray that we won’t be interrupted again by a call from Grandma - or worse, the school.

I try really, really hard to make the best quality porn I can…I put my heart & soul and every spare penny (because believe me, six signups a month is not anywhere near paying for what it costs to run a paysite, even on a shoestring budget) into it…and I’m really miserable right now about the corners I’m having to cut just to keep going.  I feel like Michelangelo, being forced to work exclusively in play-doh, on a table covered with cat hair.  I honestly don’t know if I can continue this way.