Yes, I do realize that I went two months posting almost nothing.  As I’ve said before, when shit happens in my life this blog is always the first thing to go.

The shit that has happened in the last couple months includes the decision that my aspie son should be placed in a special ed class, which means he’s going to have to change schools.  I’ve spent a LOT of time lately investigating the different choices and agonizing about which is best for him.  Asperger’s is such a strange combination - in some ways he’s brilliant, but in other ways he’s quite retarded - which makes him as seriously out of place in most of the special ed classes as he is in a regular class.

(By the way, and not that I am going to go into this now but just FYI for any other aspies who may happen onto this blog - I’m an aspie too.)

There’s more classroom touring and official meeting to be done before the change is made, but hopefully the end result will be my family settling into a calmer, happier groove.

We’ve also had xmas of course, and with that 2 weeks of no school, which cuts down on mommy’s computer/working time dreadfully.  I don’t know how I ever managed before they started school and I am not at all surprised that I felt so crazy back then, trying to juggle it all.  I’m still disheartened by the lack of income from my business (especially as those bills are piling up faster and getting more urgent), but apart from that I am pretty content with the way things are going for Chateau Cherie Enterprises.  And mostly confident that if I keep doing what I’m doing the money will, eventually, come with it.

This xmas brought another big project as our big gift to our daughter was a puppet theatre.  Not just any puppet theatre either but a custom made (by mommy & daddy, naturally) full wall unit, with a play table and shelves galore.  She adores it and I adore anything that smooths the running of our daily lives, which all that extra storage certainly does.  It’s also very nice to be doing something to “fix up” our home, instead of helplessly watching the bits in need of fixing continue to deteriorate.  Money’s so tight that we literally can’t afford the materials to do the little repairs a house always seems to need, and this place was something of a fixer-upper when we moved in.  We had a comfortable xmas, materially speaking, because of the generosity of others who chipped in with contributions for the kids.

Since the only aspect of my enterprise that’s showing a solid profit is the live fetish session aspect, I have decided to focus more on that in coming months.  I feel that my career aspirations in the adult industry are coalescing around two prongs, which don’t seem to have all that much in common:  homemade bbw porn and female domination.  On the one hand, I love making amateur porn.  I particularly love being able to produce something that I think speaks to women, showing them that you don’t have to be a skinny barely-legal plasticized bimbo to be desirable or enjoy wanton hedonistic sex, and to couples, showing them that porn can enhance communication and enjoyment between partners.

I love making this kind of porn, I really do, and I have years and years worth of ideas left to explore in this “vanilla” realm.  But for my own personal satisfaction - what I really long to do, sexually speaking, and (mostly) am not doing - I am drawn back time and again to fedom.  Ravishing prettily dressed boys is what *I* fantasize about when I masturbate, and every time I get to play with a subguy, online or in person, I come away feeling more wholly myself, more accomplished and fulfilled, than with anything else.

Especially when I’m getting paid for it, lol!

So anyway, I am working on a new website specifically to advertise my services as a (semi)professional domina.  And finally, I also just registered a new domain - MyFatFeet.com - which I plan to develop eventually (I mean to go real slow with this one) into a little chubby foot fetish site.  I’ll post links here when it’s further along, but I think that this picture, from one of my December updates, could very well wind up on both of them:

Tasty, is it not?  There was a very nice feather stroking video too, which I may post a clip from later this week.  Or you can just join me now to see both gallery and video in their entirety.

Instead of endlessly fighting for incremental hikes in the minimum wage, why not introduce legislation to constrain the difference between what the people at the bottom of a company make vs. those at the top?

The notion that companies will be forced to cut staff and raise prices if the minimum wage is utter bullshit, as has been proved time and again by raises in the minimum wage over the past century.  The REAL problem is that those at the top of our big corporations (like, for instance, Wal-Mart) make THOUSANDS of times the amount that those on the bottom of said companies do.  Despite the fact that executives don’t actually work any harder than sales clerks, and often aren’t any smarter, better educated, or more talented either.  Yes, perhaps a CEO is a bit more difficult to replace than a cashier, but no one in the modern corporation is indespensable and it’s about damn time we stopped acting as if the success of a company depended more on the labors of the guy in the expensive suit than the labors of those in blue jeans.

So I suggest that we establish a standard limit, requiring the COMPLETE wage/benefit package (no sneaking millions of extra dollars in through stock options, bonuses etc!) of the top earner in any company to be no more than, say, a few hundred times the amount earned by the lowest-paid worker in the company.  Then every time some damn fool in an expensive suit wants to reward himself with a juicy fat bonus he’ll be forced to pay due consideration to the efforts of those beneath him in the chain of command, without whose efforts his exalted position would be worthless.

As a side benefit, it might allow big companies to pay higher dividends to their stockholders, which could - just maybe - put the focus (and reward!) of capitalism back on the pooling of resources to promote innovation, rather than on the mere moving around of bits of paper (or electrons) to generate (a convincing illusion of) wealth.

(Stock trading vs. stock investing folks, think about it.)

This ejaculating, vibrating butt plug was another goody sent to me by my lovely friends at WetEgg.com.

I have been putting it through it’s paces for the past several months, and my conclusion is this:  if you don’t have an anal toy that vibrates, drop whatever you’re doing and go, right now, and get yourself one.  Seriously.  You’ll thank me for it.   This was my first vibrating ass toy (why, oh why, have I waited so long?) and let me tell you, I could hardly believe how fucking incredible it feels to have a little hum in the bum.  Not to mention the remarkable enhancement it gives to an ordinary gspot or clitoral orgasm. 

Like many folks, when I’m using an anal toy I typically prefer to stick it in and sit on it rather than do any actual thrusting, and this plug is perhaps not the best design for my style of anal stimulation.  It’s got a widened & rounded base which is both fairly comfortable to sit on and quite good at what it’s designed for (keeping the toy from going in too far and getting lost in your bum) but I would have preferred more of a flare to the insertable part to keep it more securely in place once inserted.  The lack of flare might be just the thing for anybody who prefers thrusting though, and the suction cup style bottom could be used to affix the toy to a chair (or even a wall) which I imagine could be lots of fun.

I also liked that this toy is made from a plastic that is obviously better than that noxious jelly stuff.  I’m not sure of the actual composition, but I would guess from feeling it (I am quite good at this sort of guessing) that it has a fairly high latex content.  Regardless of the material I would not consider this one to be really sterilizable though, because of the narrow, gunk-trapping tube through with the toy “ejaculates”.  Which brings me to the second feature of this toy, and the second conclusion I have come to:  Ejaculating toys must be made mostly for men.  Or at least for people who have greater hand strength than the average woman. 

All the ejaculating toys I’ve ever encountered work on the same principle - a bulb full of water (or some other fluid) connects to the toy via a narrow tube, and the “ejaculation” is achieved by squeezing the fluid out of the bulb, through the tube, and out the opening in the toy.  It sounds great in theory - simulating the sexy sensation of being filled with your lover’s cum - but in practice the sensation leaves much to be desired.  The bulbs always seem to be too thick to be easily “squoze” with an average woman’s hand strength, which means the force of the ejaculation is weak and barely perceptible.  And the tubes always manage to be too short for the bulb to be within convenient reach when one is masturbating solo.  Of course, if you happen to be masturbating with a male friend present he could squeeze the bulb for you at the crucial moment, which would solve the problem nicely (and perhaps add another element of excitement if you were playing any kind of BDSM game).  

So overall, I am completely in love with the vibrating butt plug aspect of this toy, and at barely eighteen bucks it’s a super starter toy for that purpose.  But I could just as well do without the ejaculating aspect, and I certainly won’t be looking for that in my next vibrating butt plug. 

The rest of ya’ll may have seen him on Howard Stern, but since I refuse to watch the shockmeister’s antics  (Nothing against Mr. Stern in particular; I just can’t stand shows whose primary aim is to rile folks up - like nails on a blackboard to my psyche) I have only just discovered Buck Angel.  Buck Angel is quite possibly the next big thing in internet porn because - get this - studly, muscly, super-masculine HE has a fully functional, juicy wet, orgasmic PUSSY.  Yes, Mr. Angel started life as a Ms., and is now enjoying the extremely interesting position of being perhaps the only female-to-male transexual in the porn industry.

I’ve looked at some of Buck’s stuff, and wow, just wow.  It’s definitely hot and for anybody who, like me, gets a sexy thrill out of mucking around with gender roles, it’s a must-see.  Check out Buck Angel’s porn site here, or click the pic below to see a free gallery.